Quick Evening Ride

Well, I am sure you have realized that I did not go to the horse trials I was stressing over. That would have happened last weekend. Next year pals, next year. I've got plans. BIG plans.

I'm just standing here. Being beautiful.

It's probably good that I didn't go, with all the money and crap we got done that weekend. But also, when I rode Prisoner, I just got so exhausted in such a short amount of time. It is hard to be a productive riding citizen when this health crap keeps holding me back. Sometimes I think about it never getting better, and that scares me. And makes me very sad.

Pandora the pony horse! And Blake the pony boy!

It is hard enough to "exist" throughout the day with these issues. At some point during the day, my body will just be done. A massive migraine will move in, I start to get chest pains, and the pain creeps in. While at work yesterday, my hands kept going numb, and my hand writing closer resembled the doctor's (not readable) vs my own.`I am trying to wrangle angry animals, and my arms become weak. And this transfers over while riding.

Cowboy Blake is my magical hay buying fairy.

While picking up a couple ton of hay on Saturday, the farmer came over to check on me and see how I was doing. I told him the troubles I have been having, and he told Blake to find a large club to hit me with to get me to slow down and rest more. Again, I am always trying to tell people that it could be worse. I asked Blake if there was something I could take to guarantee to feel good at my wedding. He suggested marijuana, but I'm thinking NO.

Again with that goddamn position of mine!

I did have a good jump school on Bacon the other night, and we jumped our first 3'3". It was pretty damn awesome. And I am realizing how much she takes care of me when I ride her. A person on the ground may not be able to notice, but I am. She takes it easier when I am feeling worse, checks back at me to see what I am doing. She tried very hard for me. And I really love her for that. We are going to attempt a jump night at a local barn tonight, so we will see how we do.

Big fail, helmet wise.

I also hopped on Pandora the other night after Blake rode her around for a little bit. I think I may have finally convinced him that the arena needs to be larger. Woo hoo! Pandora was lazy as usual without my spurs on. But I got her moving out well and we did a few nice stops. I was really pleased with her because I have done basically nothing with her, and she can pull out these nice little moves. Freak of nature, that one.

A little stop here.

The beginning of a roll back.

There is a nice stop too!