GOOOOAAAAALLL!!!! Oh Wait. Goals. For 2015.

Crazy husband rides in this crap too. Weirdo.

I attempted to drive to work this morning even after my phone alerted me of multiple accidents within a span of 7 minutes. I waited an extra hour just to see if that would help but no. The freezing rain on top of snow coupled with my sad little rear wheeled drive pickup and my anxiety is not a good mix. Throwing a couple of crazy assholes on the road with me doesn't help either. And after barely missing sliding into a guard rail, I called it quits and came back home. The clinic will do without me.

Play with more racehorses.

So, what else should a stranded girl do but make her goals of 2015 post. I hope you like it because my hands are not working well today so it may take me a while to type up. Appreciate the hell out of it.

Anyways, I bet you can guess my number one goal for the year. Yep, that is right.

1. Discover my illness and kick it's ass. 

I had a talk with the hubby over the weekend about this. I told him how much this is stressing me out. Not just because it makes me feel like poo, but because it is controlling me in other parts of my life. What is it? Will it continue to get worse? Will I ever get better? Will it shorten my life? Should I keep working? Is it cancer? What if I had to do chemo? Can I keep riding? You get the idea. It isn't fun, and even if it is something horrible, I just want to know what it is so we can know how to deal with it.

Give the Bacon more pats.

2. Complete my first three day event.

Obviously I have decided that the sickness will not destroy my dream of finishing one of these. I don't care where it is and what level we do it at, but I want it to happen. It will happen.

Go on more trail rides!

3. Reach a new personal record jump height on the Bacon. Last year we hit 3'3". And it seemed like cake when it happened. So I have faith that this will be very achievable.

4. Compete at Novice somewhere. Derby or three day event. Probably at Aspen or Golden Spike!

Goddamn dressage.

5. Learn to relax during our dressage tests. Not only relax, but help my horse learn that dressage is good. Maybe it isn't fun, but it is good. And we can do it well.

Where my helmet. Whoops.

6. Ride all ponies more this year! They deserve the love too. And they deserve their abilities and awesomeness to be exposed and shared with you all. Even if it pisses Vegas off.

Hone in that position.

7. Do more course work. And take lessons to be able to do the course work. Right now I have more anxiety about doing a course at an actual show than doing a dressage test. And that is just sad.

Sleep with pigs more. And hide the face?

8. Get more awesome pictures. Because hell yeah.

9. Pay off my damn saddle. Gaaaaaaaah.

A close up of my tired hands resting on my horse during xc. Sorry Bacon :(

10. Do a training level jump. One of these times, I am jumping one. You'll see.

So, there. I am pretty sure that all of these are attainable. Half way through the year, I think I will see where I am at with everything. Just for funsies. I think if I have my husband, my pups, and my girls, I will get through this year, no matter what happens.

Maybe I will be able to do more art!